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Yoo Joonghyuk ([personal profile] regretsor) wrote2021-12-03 06:39 pm

Are you hurting the one you love?

Just some silly gay idiots doing silly gay idiot things.

I. Soulmate AU
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 05:05 am (UTC)(link)
It's obviously embarrassing to be carried like that...

[Does he really not know? He really doesn't seem to know. Kim Dokja is tempted to activate Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint just to double check, but this man really seems to be clueless. He'll let it go, then, because it's too late anyway. The deed is done. He'll have to endure the endless teasing.

At least Han Sooyoong doesn't know about any of this.

He tries to compose himself again. He's doing a really bad job of it. He would have thought the embarrassment would have helped with his erection, but it seems to have had the opposite effect.]


I don't know why you were warning me like it's some sort of bad thing.
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 12:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[He hesitates a little. Yoo Joonghyuk really hadn't done it to embarrass him, then, and his earnestness now was... It was so in contrast from the violent bastard he still kept expecting the protagonist to be. It was sweet.]

If you really have to carry me, that way is fine.

[He still would prefer to avoid it. Yoo Joonghyuk wasn't the one who'd be the target of everyone's teasing, while Kim Dokja seemed to attract those kinds of comments. Was it really important, though, compared to the fact that this man wanted him? It was difficult to shake a lifetime of protecting himself, but this was his soulmate.]

We don't have to do it now.

[The words are a bit painful to say. He's so worked up, all he wants is to throw himself at this man. Was Yoo Joonghyuk always this hesitant? Kim Dokja thought back to Ways of Survival. Yoo Joonghuk almost never took a lover, throughout all his regressions, and there were always people interested in him... Lee Seolhwa was one of the rare exceptions. And yes, it had taken her some time to get through to the guarded protagonist.

He shoves down his disappointment, his insecure thoughts.]


If you want to wait, we'll wait.
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 01:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh.

[He still doesn't really understand the hesitation, then. Kim Dokja obviously wants this, and it's not something that really needs a warning, which is the word Yoo Joonghyk had used. But maybe he's thinking that because of his inexperience.

At any rate, he knows what Yoo Joonghyk wants to hear.]


Yes. [One word. Unmistakable.] I'm alright with this.

[It still goes against his very nature to be so straightforward with his answers, but it's the only thing that will get them anywhere here.]

More than that, I'm trying to make it happen.
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 01:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[Somehow the way Yoo Joonghyuk kisses him is still overwhelming. It's a few moments where he forgets to breathe, and then he discovers that both their coats are already on the ground.

He wonders if it's even possible to get used to this. Yoo Joonghyuk is the most intense man he's ever met, even more intense than Ways of Survival described him as. He wants to touch. He wants to keep kissing. He's not sure where to start, but Yoo Joonghyuk clearly does, so he steps closer, moves his hands up to rest on the man's chest, and then - with some uncertainty - gets at least a couple of buttons open.

He has to be twice the size of Kim Dokja with all that muscle he can feel under his shirt.]
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 02:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[The feeling of Yoo Joonghyuk touching his bare skin makes him moan, pressing himself closer instinctively. It feels impossibly good. At the same time it makes him feel vulnerable, a feeling he tries his best to shove down somewhere deep.

That comment makes him hesitate again.]


What my body looks like doesn't matter anymore. It doesn't reflect strength in the scenarios.

[It's defensive. It's probably too defensive. But he knows he's small compared to this man, who is some sort of perfect specimen, the ideal protagonist. They really are opposites in so many ways.]

--It's not that bad, is it?
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 02:20 pm (UTC)(link)
[He hadn't expected this to turn into a commentary on his healthy or unhealthy habits. He didn't think it mattered anymore, if it ever had, when his goal had never been to be an athlete.]

Does carrying your dead weight around count as training?

[The kisses are spreading goosebumps across his skin. It's distracting him from the commentary, at least a little, but he still feels like he has a point to make. His hands drop down from Yoo Joonghyk's chest, and instead move to pick him up, so he can hopefully push him against a nearby wall.]

Does training matter when I can do this?
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 03:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Not bad?

[Maybe he should try working out a little bit, to improve that assessment. On the other hand, he's probably a lost cause. And instead of thinking about that, he'd much rather get back to what they were doing a moment ago, when Yoo Joonghyuk's hands were touching him.

The downside to lifting him up is that now it really would be impossible to kiss him. His hands aren't free to touch, either. He really didn't think this through. He sets him down again, but keeps him pushed against the wall, before getting up on the very tips of his toes so he can kiss him.]


Maybe you should be thinking about something else.

[He tugs at Yoo Joonghyuk's shirt, making a button pop loose. It's a small act of revenge, but it's satisfying.]
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 03:59 pm (UTC)(link)
There's never any time for that.

[He knows that argument won't go over well, but the point here isn't appeasing the other. They have different priorities, that's all, and Kim Dokja feels he's been doing well for himself considering.

Though now he's the one who ends up distracted by the other. His mind goes blank for a second at the bite. He moans, the pain making him twist his body as he feels a shudder build along his spine. He digs his fingers into Yoo Joonghyuk's hips.]


Oh -- That's --

[What were they talking about?]
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 05:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[Just as his brain kicks in again, Yoo Joonghyuk makes that comment. It leaves him immediately flustered.]

Shut up, you damn bastard.

[He has no better comeback, not when Yoo Joonghyuk keeps doing that with his mouth. He has to get back at him somehow. He has to figure out a way to touch him that the other man likes. Impatiently, he tries to shake his shirt off his shoulders, to get that out of the way, but it gets stuck on his wrists, hanging down behind him and preventing him from reaching Yoo Joonghyuk at all.

Reaching behind himself, he manages to pull one hand free at least. He lets the shirt dangle freely from the other, not caring if it drags against the ground.]
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 06:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Of course you do. You're too damn smug.

[And he can't do anything about the way Yoo Joonghyuk's attention is making him moan and squirm. He's quickly becoming breathless. He refuses to surrender, though, so he goes for a desperate move: He pushes Yoo Joonghyuk roughly back to create space between them, if only so that he can lean in, fill that space again, and take his turn pressing kisses to the other man's chest.

He has no idea what he's doing. He's just mimicking what Yoo Joonghyuk was doing. He nips at his skin, though not nearly as roughly, wishing he had any confidence right now.

What would Yoo Joonghyuk like? Ways of Survival never went into any detail when it came to something like this.]
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 08:39 pm (UTC)(link)
I want to hear you, too.

[Maybe he is a bit too defensive, but he's not really capable of turning that off. What he is capable of, though, is following instruction - for once, maybe because it was phrased as a challenge, meant to goad him. He bites at Yoo Joonghyuk's shoulder, harder than before, leaving red marks behind in the muscle. And then on a whim he kisses that same spot.

He pushes his hands against his stomach, just to feel, just to touch, admiring the way his abs are shifting and moving as Yoo Joonghyuk breathes.]


So you like it rough?

[He has to know if he's going to learn.]
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 09:20 pm (UTC)(link)
[That's... Not what he expected to hear at all. He'd thought of this as a competition, but those words are making quick work of him, leaving him feeling disarmed. He raises his head to look up at Yoo Joonghyuk. His expression is clearly surprised, caught off guard.

Not sure what to say, he wraps a hand behind the back of his neck, and leans in to kiss him, hard. His shirt is left dangling down between them.]


You can have both.

[All of it, he thinks. He just wants this man. It's terrifying, but he wants him more than he can describe. It's the kind of cliche phrase he'd scoff at when he reads it in a novel, but right now it's the only thing that could be accurate.]

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