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Yoo Joonghyuk ([personal profile] regretsor) wrote2021-12-03 06:39 pm

Are you hurting the one you love?

Just some silly gay idiots doing silly gay idiot things.

I. Soulmate AU
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 03:18 am (UTC)(link)
Are you?

[He can't help it. He really can't resist. This man brings out something in him that makes him want to push him to the very edge. Yoo Joonghyk is the most frustrating and annoying protagonist he can imagine, and he can't imagine ever rolling over for a bastard like that. At the same time he wants him so much that it's painful.

He wants to say: It seems like all it would take for you to lose control is for me to keep talking. He doesn't, because he knows that if he does, Yoo Joonghyk will walk away just to prove a point. He doesn't want that. He doesn't want this moment to end.

Who knows when they'll next have a chance?]


Give up now and we'll call it a tie.
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 03:44 am (UTC)(link)
[Kim Dokja can't help but moan as Yoo Joonghyk grinds against him. For a second he gets the same deer-in-headlights expression as he had earlier, as he realizes just how smug this bastard is gonna be. So he'd noticed that he was getting an erection. It was probably obvious when they were pressed against each other, but he'd been hoping.

He holds on a little bit tighter. It's strange to hear Yoo Joonghyk say his name like that, too, instead of just yelling it without honorifics. In the middle of this that's getting to him, too.]


We're not -- You know we're not in private.

And he suddenly really wishes they were.]

Everyone is close enough to see what you do.
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
[He doesn't comment on the Star Stream. He doesn't want to anger anyone following his channel, especially considering the move he pulled with them all earlier, to get them to subscribe. But he really wants to curse them all out for watching.

He doesn't want to think about any of that, but now that Yoo Joonghyuk has mentioned it, he can't help it.

He glances over his shoulder to where the others are. Looks back up at Yoo Joonghyk. He wets his lips a little. Maybe he can ignore the constellations, but he's still not answering that right here. He's not sure he knows how to answer.]


Can we go somewhere else first?

[He wants too much. He just wants to keep holding on.]
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 04:38 am (UTC)(link)
What are you doing --

[He tries to object as Yoo Joonghyk lifts him up like that, immediately and incredibly embarrassed. Everyone saw that. He's going to get teased about that for weeks.

He holds on tight as Yoo Joonghyk speeds away, though he knows the man would never drop him. That's the one good thing he can think about him right now. No matter how good looking he is, he's still a selfish, arrogant, sadistic bastard who is probably enjoying Kim Dokja's embarrassment immensely.

But any anger is drowned out by his desires for this man. He doesn't let go as he's finally set down, just tries to shove him backwards a bit to make a point, in lieu of actually punching him.]


I would have gone with you even if you didn't carry me.

[But the rest of the situation is... is --

He knows what Yoo Joonghyuk is talking about. He might be inexperienced, but he is a reader. He knows how these things go. It would be impossible not to want it, but faced with the very real possibility of this happening, nervousness starts welling up from underneath everything else that he's been feeling. He wets his lips, and laughs a little, awkwardly.]


How exactly do you want to do it?
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 05:05 am (UTC)(link)
It's obviously embarrassing to be carried like that...

[Does he really not know? He really doesn't seem to know. Kim Dokja is tempted to activate Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint just to double check, but this man really seems to be clueless. He'll let it go, then, because it's too late anyway. The deed is done. He'll have to endure the endless teasing.

At least Han Sooyoong doesn't know about any of this.

He tries to compose himself again. He's doing a really bad job of it. He would have thought the embarrassment would have helped with his erection, but it seems to have had the opposite effect.]


I don't know why you were warning me like it's some sort of bad thing.
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 12:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[He hesitates a little. Yoo Joonghyuk really hadn't done it to embarrass him, then, and his earnestness now was... It was so in contrast from the violent bastard he still kept expecting the protagonist to be. It was sweet.]

If you really have to carry me, that way is fine.

[He still would prefer to avoid it. Yoo Joonghyuk wasn't the one who'd be the target of everyone's teasing, while Kim Dokja seemed to attract those kinds of comments. Was it really important, though, compared to the fact that this man wanted him? It was difficult to shake a lifetime of protecting himself, but this was his soulmate.]

We don't have to do it now.

[The words are a bit painful to say. He's so worked up, all he wants is to throw himself at this man. Was Yoo Joonghyuk always this hesitant? Kim Dokja thought back to Ways of Survival. Yoo Joonghuk almost never took a lover, throughout all his regressions, and there were always people interested in him... Lee Seolhwa was one of the rare exceptions. And yes, it had taken her some time to get through to the guarded protagonist.

He shoves down his disappointment, his insecure thoughts.]


If you want to wait, we'll wait.
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 01:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh.

[He still doesn't really understand the hesitation, then. Kim Dokja obviously wants this, and it's not something that really needs a warning, which is the word Yoo Joonghyk had used. But maybe he's thinking that because of his inexperience.

At any rate, he knows what Yoo Joonghyk wants to hear.]


Yes. [One word. Unmistakable.] I'm alright with this.

[It still goes against his very nature to be so straightforward with his answers, but it's the only thing that will get them anywhere here.]

More than that, I'm trying to make it happen.
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 01:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[Somehow the way Yoo Joonghyuk kisses him is still overwhelming. It's a few moments where he forgets to breathe, and then he discovers that both their coats are already on the ground.

He wonders if it's even possible to get used to this. Yoo Joonghyuk is the most intense man he's ever met, even more intense than Ways of Survival described him as. He wants to touch. He wants to keep kissing. He's not sure where to start, but Yoo Joonghyuk clearly does, so he steps closer, moves his hands up to rest on the man's chest, and then - with some uncertainty - gets at least a couple of buttons open.

He has to be twice the size of Kim Dokja with all that muscle he can feel under his shirt.]
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 02:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[The feeling of Yoo Joonghyuk touching his bare skin makes him moan, pressing himself closer instinctively. It feels impossibly good. At the same time it makes him feel vulnerable, a feeling he tries his best to shove down somewhere deep.

That comment makes him hesitate again.]


What my body looks like doesn't matter anymore. It doesn't reflect strength in the scenarios.

[It's defensive. It's probably too defensive. But he knows he's small compared to this man, who is some sort of perfect specimen, the ideal protagonist. They really are opposites in so many ways.]

--It's not that bad, is it?
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 02:20 pm (UTC)(link)
[He hadn't expected this to turn into a commentary on his healthy or unhealthy habits. He didn't think it mattered anymore, if it ever had, when his goal had never been to be an athlete.]

Does carrying your dead weight around count as training?

[The kisses are spreading goosebumps across his skin. It's distracting him from the commentary, at least a little, but he still feels like he has a point to make. His hands drop down from Yoo Joonghyk's chest, and instead move to pick him up, so he can hopefully push him against a nearby wall.]

Does training matter when I can do this?
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 03:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Not bad?

[Maybe he should try working out a little bit, to improve that assessment. On the other hand, he's probably a lost cause. And instead of thinking about that, he'd much rather get back to what they were doing a moment ago, when Yoo Joonghyuk's hands were touching him.

The downside to lifting him up is that now it really would be impossible to kiss him. His hands aren't free to touch, either. He really didn't think this through. He sets him down again, but keeps him pushed against the wall, before getting up on the very tips of his toes so he can kiss him.]


Maybe you should be thinking about something else.

[He tugs at Yoo Joonghyuk's shirt, making a button pop loose. It's a small act of revenge, but it's satisfying.]
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[personal profile] endgoal 2021-12-13 03:59 pm (UTC)(link)
There's never any time for that.

[He knows that argument won't go over well, but the point here isn't appeasing the other. They have different priorities, that's all, and Kim Dokja feels he's been doing well for himself considering.

Though now he's the one who ends up distracted by the other. His mind goes blank for a second at the bite. He moans, the pain making him twist his body as he feels a shudder build along his spine. He digs his fingers into Yoo Joonghyuk's hips.]


Oh -- That's --

[What were they talking about?]

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